The problem with being halfway done is … ugh, I’m only halfway done. Round four is coming up on Tuesday, and I can’t believe I have to do this fucking thing three more times. Ugh. I’ve already started taking the pre-meds, yay. I have heard about people going through chemo who start to have anticipatory nausea leading up to chemo day. I’m not having that problem (thank goodness) but there’s definitely an overall feeling of dread.
I can also detect that phenomenon where you remember the good things better than the bad things (e.g., why people ever get pregnant a second time). I feel mostly fine now – just a few lingering symptoms – and it’s always hard to remember exactly how I felt last time. I suppose this is a good thing; maybe it lessens my dread.